It slipped out of me when talking to a friend on the Fourth of July weekend when she  mentioned that she was going to the parade the next day.

“I hate parades!” I said.

Where did that come from?

Then the memory came. Every year my family attended the parade. Every year there were two things I wanted that so many other children seemed to have: a helium balloon, and a soft pretzel. As a very young child, I thought brightly colored helium balloons were almost magical. I wanted one so badly.

I asked my parents: “Can I have a helium balloon?”

“No.” They may have added, “If I got one for you, I’d have to buy one for your brothers, too. We can’t afford it.”

One time perhaps wouldn’t have made a difference. But always it was the same, year after year. I never did get a helium balloon that I can remember, not even on my birthday. I suppose at some point I quit asking, so perhaps they never knew how much I wanted one.

Like the “Popsicle memory” mentioned in The Healing Code, such a memory seems trivial, almost embarrassing to recount. I’m sure had I not read that book, I never would have understood that such memories plant destructive seeds based on lies that grow and choke out out the good fruit of life.

This particular lie grew into beliefs that “I can’t get what I want,” “I don’t deserve nice things,” “It’s wrong to ask for what I want,” “Life is all about the practical,” “I can’t have anything special or too expensive” and probably others.

When unhealthy beliefs are formed at a very young age, especially before age 6 when the brain develops more maturity, they become “hard-wired” into our core belief system and go underground, says Alex Loyd in The Healing Code. And according to Dr. Bruce Lipton in The Biology of Belief, it’s these unconscious memories that are truly at the root of at least 98% of illnesses. It’s the environment of the cell that determines its health, and that environment is created by our beliefs, not our DNA. Read More→